" How are you ? "
a question asked by almost any typical person. well a true person
who is really really concern or wanna know exactly How are you,
would continue probing and asking ah well. There i introduce to you
the universal conversation starter How are you ?
Well now, How am i ?
Not good. Life's been so messy, fast, confusing, whatever you might
call it. Emo - thats what people who know me would call me ? yeah
well, this time it aint just emo. Its something else, perhaps God breaking
me, refining me for greater things. But its just not the time for that,
im not ready, no one ever will.
Theres just TOOOOO many things to say i cant say it. Well for now,
lets talk about friends. True friends. They are those who ask about
your life not just when you're down. They are those who you can turn
to and know that they'll get back to you as soon as they can. They accept
you not just for parts of who you are, but accepts you for you and nothing
else. They even accept your bad side, they bear with it cause they know
you too have live through theirs. Well its been months that i myself havent
been carrying out my duty as a good true friend. I'm sorry, life's just been
eating me up with its stupid theories and nature of it. Those people who
im saying sorry to you know who you are. NH and RT. I'm just so sorry,
i know you'll understand give me more time than i'll do my duty as a true
friend. For now, i really like to be 'left alone'. I'm sorry that i have not
appreciated you for being there for me at this point of time. Its just how the
human works.
You made me who i am today.
Natalie Yeo. You already know what you've done in my life. The random
times you received messages from me. Thou you dont ALWAYS reply
my messages i know you care. You stepped into my life and i know you'll
sit right beside me holding my hand as a friend walking and guiding this
life. Well you know theres alot more to what i can say but i dont want to
reach the maximum number of words.
Marvin Ng. Well bro, you've been just such a blessing in my life. Somehow
God made us know each other in the most funny way. I still remember,
Sunday soccer, fish pond 4.30pm. How we would both squat in the middle
of the field while everyone was kicking the ball and just pluck the dead leaves.
I just knew your name nothing else. Than somehow i knew sherman and yeah
you, you asked me if i wanted to study overnight at airport. It felt like i knew
you for years haha, the takraw games at the airport - oh ! the unbelieve curl
lol. and yeah pc. Thanks bro for being there for me. Well we're both pretty
much in the same boat, just hope you take care man. Find me up anytime.
Huiting Ng. Lol nah she aint marvin's sister. Huiting ! its so funny how we
knew each other. It was just so random honestly. Dont tell me you dont remember !
Anyway yeah just to let you know and assure you, i aint no 'marcus' (: im shawn, a
friend that will be here to share your life with you. I personally am so sorry for
neglecting you for the past 2 months ? yeah you know the reason why. We have so
much to catch up on ! Lets go to the jap restaurant ! never got the chance to go there
again after we ate there. Anyway yeah thanks for being there for me at random times
too (: take care dear friend.
Sherman Wong. Haha interesting friendship i would say ? We never really hung
around with each other much besides holidays and dota ? Thats how we got to know
each other if im not wrong. cant remember, sorry :x anyway yeah, thou we dont exactly
talk much you've just blessed me by giving me advice when i was down. Thanks.
Thank you for being in my life till now, i really appreciate it. Well hope you feel the same
way too, thats to you two guys.
And of course to YOU who are reading this, you must have at least a lil concern on
how am i if not you wouldnt be here. Unless you're like super bored and come to this
boring blue page. Thanks for being my friend. And yes it takes two hand to claps.
It takes two people to make a friendship going (:
Okay this is SUPER RANDOM but i think its funny ! no offence its just pure humour !!
Yo mama's so fat, she ain't on a diet, she's on a Triet - She's all like - "Whatever yo eating ... I'll try it!"
Okay okay guess i end off on a not so sad note tonight. Well thats just for now... blah. Take
care all you peeps (:
Love, Shawn.
hello i just came back and it wasnt such an ordinary
day as it would normally.
accidents happens everyday, well i was in one today.
took 24 home as usual a group of 4 boys block the
walk way so squeezed through and got a seat,
nothing unusual, saw a few familiar faces that would
take 24 at random timings like me. looked and look
away and than would look again, interesting how
people work and how they play with the mind just by looking. anyway.
the bus was kinda fast ? ok kinda normal but felt
fast and it was at a junction, *BEEEP* horn, SMASH!
luckily i moved to the back earlier cause the people in front
kinda fell ? yeah.. but no one was injured. everyone in front
was like confused or rather shocked ? the people at the
back too were shocked but as they were seating down from
the corner of my eye it seemed as thou they were
so cool about it. anyway got off the bus and saw that
the bus smack right in the centre of the taxi by its right.
right window came out, front mirror whole thing came off,
headlights on the road. the bad thing was the accident happened
in front of the traffic light where cars were like moving and
we were in the middle of the road than everyone started crossing
and cars at the back didnt see what happened and kept horning.
a woman almost got bang, oh my. singaporeans.. anyway yeah
taxi driver was alright.
well now i know that life is worth living. you never know such
things till you almost had an encounter with death. yeah you
may say i wasnt even injured or anything. well thats God's
grace for you friends. i could be the one in the taxi sitting
in front. it could have been a big lorry and it smashed the bus
instead, it could be anything. but no one was injured, usually
after an accident or rather bus accident, where we dont have
to care about the vehicle we just walk off and just talk about it
here and there and we dont see that we are actually VERY VERY
lucky ? well thats how things work with people, scared of death
but yet seem so normal about it ? well even thou i know my life is
worth living, i dont exactly know the reason why it is. God you may
say ? or Christians may say. well i used to say it, but i pause and
think why God ? Yes, He died on the cross for us and suffered but yeah
there are just things i dont understand and would wanna find out
than think i understand when i actually dont if someone were
to ask me. i've got questions, about life, about how things work,
about christianity even. well thats not what i blogged today so yeah
just treasure your life, you dont know what will happen next. dont
think nothing would. i had another close close close shave with death,
but i wont share it. not now. cya.
wed.020507
hello im feeling super super out of sorts for aroun 3/4 a year and
im at the point where i really cant take it myself anymore.
the person who always initiates things now cant be as bothered
as he used to. and the person who was alright about initiating
conversations with close friends is now not doing so. cause he
feels hes been taken for granted and friendship is a two way thing
he wants to know who are the friends who just because this person
doesnt initiate anymore are just gonna let the friendship go and those
that actually bothers to ask or initiate conversation too. Because it takes
two hands to clap, friendship, as well, is a two way thing. It takes two
people to say " Yes, i do " for them to get married and not just one.
well looks like alot of people are just gonna let this friendship go, well
people come people go, thats what PEOPLE say. but i believe that if both
parties do their part of friendship people come and people stay.
for those people that i've wrong or are just too busy to talk to me
im sorry, i dont mean this for you. i just cant stand the situation anymore.
i just cant stand it, i use to be able to stand up strong and fight against this
the hurts, the pain, carrying the burden with people. but now, im too weak
to do what i used to. I need friends that cares and loves and understands.
I want people not to judge him just because of ONE bad thing i've done.
why cant people just look at their good points instead of their wrong doing, we're
human after all.
i've got nothing to say, im just too weak to carry on.
nights.
im now at the point where i feel that i should have never joined this race. thou i know in the end i'll take back what i said but i just wanna write it down. well im now still running and see that the next level and rest point is just a few steps ahead but i ran out energy, i took too much baggage not belonging to me along this time, my body cant carry on and my mind too. i've been exhausted, the pacer in front of me is gone, the support along the sides are slowly disappearing..
maybe its time to give up.
*cow i know you're there at the side lines supporting me but i cant seem to get near the sidelines to just know that you're physically there. im sorry.
HELLO big big big brotherrrrr. sorry for elbow-ing your stomach. hahah. so long never hit people in the stomach. i think the last person was your brother. but anyway, hope service was great for you and.... that you had a nice and pleasant day. hah.
and remember, dont sighhh over '' '' things lah. leave it to God because he cares. ;)
alright. goodnight!
joyluuuuuuuuuuuuuuu! :D
alright man. today during QLM i really believe he died for me. like what pj said. he came to live just to give. and it was all out of love. he died. yes he really died for me and im glad that i know him. im so joyed now! ( btw there is such a word called joyed) :D
now i can boldly say..... I LOVE JESUS!
do you? :)
joyluuuuuuuuu-
big brother! im so glad my common tests are over! haha yay. :D but my results are sucky, but whatever... so gay noob. noob noob noob! its a noob week man.
haha okay anyway, the sun has gone down, the stars and moon are up hanging lol.. and i should be sleeping now okay, good night! cant believe im depriving myself of my noob sleep.
tml is gonna be a noob day. =\ gayballs.
alright! good night the noob big brother!